I just went to caring group the other night for the first time this year, and it was fun! However, we found out that we should start thinking about who we would like to be our confirmation sponsor. They have to be Christian, they have to be able to come to church with me when needed (in other words, live nearby), they cannot be a parent, and you have to be comfortable talking to them. I'm struggling because I'm really not sure who to choose. I was thinking my grandpa, but he lives a little too far away, and I'm not sure if he's a confirmed Christian, though I'm pretty positive he is. I mean, I know if I asked him, he would do it in a heartbeat. That's just the kind of man he is. He wouldn't care how far of a drive it is. But I would just feel guilty.

Hopefully God will send me a sign as to who to choose.

So I have been sick for the past few days and whenever I get to that one day where I feel really sick, I always end up having bad thoughts. Like I think about death alot and how I don't want to die and how I don't want my parents or brother to die, and those thoughts just keep on coming. I can't stop them. Eventually, I end up crying. Always. Well last night it got really bad. I was scared out of my mind. So I decided to pray. I prayed to God to take these awful thoughts out of my mind and replace them with happy ones. I told him how scared I was of my own thoughts and that I needed some assistance. The whole time I was praying, I was shaking and crying. So when I finished praying, I tried to go back asleep and I noticed something... my thoughts were happier! Every time I felt a bad thought coming on, something in my head changed. All I saw was God swooping down from the sky and forming a blanket over me. And I really could feel a blanket! It was the warmest and softest blanket ever. That happened every time a bad thought was coming. Eventually, I fell asleep. No more bad thoughts.

Thank you, God. Thank you. =]