Hey guys, I really just want to ask if ya'll could pray for a good friend of mine. Actually, the guy I've been writing about. God has revealed a lot to me...including the fact that this guy is not with the Lord like he was. I'm not going to be scared anymore though, because honestly...as far as I'm concerned, the devil is no match for God. God's infinitely more powerful and I know that my best friend is in good hands...but it's heartbreaking to see such a beautiful soul being snared by the Enemy. I don't know why...but I think I feel evil a little bit more than some people. *shrugs*

This guy is one of the most compassionate giving souls that I know...he's finally happy being single, but he needs the Lord. I know I can't be the one to interfere this time. Not unless God tells me to. He just needs prayer, a lot of it. His best friend is leaving on Wednesday and my dear buddy doesn't know what he's going to do. It's amazing how strong and how heavy spiritual warfare can be sometimes.

I also would just request prayer for my father and mother. My father's been addicted to drugs for some 26 years or so...my mom has had the same problem. My sister has been addicted to heroin, done crack and only the Lord knows what else for the past 10 years...my brother is getting off of pot..thank goodness. Please pray for them.

I am praying for all of you...please leave me prayer requests if you have them. I love to pray. Seriously. I love just talking to God. It's wonderful. So, let me know what I can do for ya.

I apologize ahead of time if the aforementioned fact repels anyone. I actually say that more toward myself than others...but teenagers, oh my gosh. We're psychotic.

Here's a list of things I think are funny about teenagers:

1. We forget we're teenagers half the time (we try to do adult things like drink, have sex...); for myself...i forget because i usually avoid doing things most kids my age do...but I'm SOOOOO a teen it's not even funny. Really. it's not. don't laugh.

2. We are convinced that we're not understood. Adults realize that sometimes...they're not completely understood by everyone, but we teens tend to think we're all on our own and the best way to solve our problems is by running from them. (actually..a lot of people do that...)

3. We seem to think that while we're teens...being a teen is a...perpetual state of being...it just goes on and on forever...therefore...why should we think of our consequences? In other words, we do before we think. We're like stuck in this...bubble...

4. Ties in with three. We like to pretend they don't...but our hormones are SOOOO raging. It's ridiculous. Half of the time we're fueled more by physical desires than by spiritual ones or mental ones. Those of us who know God long for Him...but (this speaking for myself as well) we still have issues dealing with the idea that God is our husband, brother, father; God is EVERYONE and EVERYTHING we'll ever need.

5. Even though we may act like we're not teens in some areas...in others we, could use a little growing up. The common trend in dating is that we date to date, not to marry. And yeah, that seems old fashioned, the courting and all that...but by the time we've dated through high school...we'll already have given up probably...65% of ourselves to other people. Maybe not that much...but more than we realize.

6. We're naive. How many of us jump into things, relationships, or friendships...and don't think about what WE need to give. People aren't just pawns. They have feelings. We need to think of consequences to them when we act like idiots. (myself included, again.)

7.  we're at least four days a week swimming in drama. Some people grow up loving drama their whole lives, but us teens...we thrive on it. Actually, I think people are strange that way. But, there's a difference between drama (which is unnecessary crisis) and actual crises. Crises help us to grow and change...so does drama...but for the most part, drama is completely unnecessary.

8. We don't respect adults. Not all of us have issues with this...but adults are amazing. God put them in our lives for a good reason. THEYVE BEEN HERE LONGER THAN WE HAVE. God's given them wisdom, insight, and knowledge we can't possibly possess. Sure, we may act like we're older sometimes...but they're the ones who have seen wars and seen pain and suffering like we can't imagine. We should give 'em a chance.

lol k...i'm done rambling about this now. I need to work on all of these too. So no worries. I don't say stuff unless I know it's true for myself. I don't have a problem with 8 though. 'Bout the only one. Haha.

What do you think is true about yourself that you might want to share with someone? If there's something anyone wants to chat about...I'm open. I love relating to people. Especially right now. I'm actually just beginning to realize how very much of a teenager I am. I'm almost 18 too. Haha. Funny.

"oh life.."

G'night ya'll.

-Alex

With every breath I take I think I'm better,
Then one comes and the dam breaks.
I see his face in my mind, a reflection of memories,
I remember his arms, a haven when I had no parents.

Why did I let myself get this close,
Why didn't I stay away?
Now I'm barely swimming in this well,
I can't remember the last time I fell so far.

I'm the one who said goodbye,
Now I want to say hello old friend.
He won't even talk to me,
I can't just let go. I don't know how.

I know he's got other things going on,
Probably nothing involving myself.
But I can't help but worry for him,
I wish he'd say he's found someone else.

I didn't remember it hurting this much,
To try and let someone go.
Yet even as I sit here,
My cheeks are flooded in tears.

I order myself to stop crying,
Stupid fool, let it go.
Then I go numb inside,
I can't even put a smile on my face.

Lord I need you. Please save me.
I don't know how to let go.
I love him too much.
I want to run away.

It seems that I'm too afraid,
Lord I need you to take this away.
Please take this away from me.
Help me to become more willing.
I'm so scared.
Please, help me.