Friday, 15 August 2008
In about two weeks, I'll be moving away from home again and starting school. A big part of me is sad to be leaving, but a small part of me is thankful for this opportunity. I've waited a long time for this next step in my life and God is now saying , "Go."
Looking back on this summer, I feel that I've grown a lot and God has been preparing me this whole time. He first told me to wait, that I wasn't ready and it hurt to think that I wasn't ready yet because I had thought that this was what he called me to do. Now I see that He was only preparing my heart for this "journey" that I'm about to embark on. To others it may not seem like a big deal, but to me it's the beginning of my purpose and plan that God's set before me.
I think my all-time favorite worship song is "Obsession" by David Crowder Band. I started listening to them in high school and they've always been the one band that i feel God has spoken through to get to my heart. The song "Obsession" seems to speak to my soul... or it is my soul longing for God, maybe both.
I've talked before about how I'm about to start this new path and I know that it's probably starting to get repetitive, but I just can't get over the fact that God has been leading me this whole time and that He will continue to lead me until I reach His kingdom. Through all the doubts, struggles, and fears, I continuously recognize and acknowledge that God is God and loves me deeply.
It's hard for me to accept when people tell me they don't believe in God or a soul or heaven. I feel like the soul is where God speaks to us the most - and sometimes we are so blessed as to feel God's fingerprints on our souls. The center of human emotions comes from deep within the soul and to think of a world without God would mean that the soul is just chemicals in the brain firing neurons back and forth. I don't believe that any of that could be true because when I feel God's tugging at my heart, it really is the tugging of my heart and soul.
I'm not sure if any of this makes sense, but God is speaking and He is real. He's telling you that He truly loves you and can't wait to see you seated next to Him at His throne.