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Monday, June 16, 2008

  • Are you carried away by my voice?
    Do I catch your fancy when I pass by?
    Am I the same woman to you from before,
    only better?

    Do you see my eyes brighten
    when you walk into a room?
    Am I your princess,
    and you, my knight?

    You seem to have forgotten who I am,
    or maybe I "tricked" you,
    like you say.
    There was no trickery here,
    no tom foolery to be heard of
    Maybe you heard wrong,
    maybe you misunderstood...



Sunday, June 15, 2008

  • Kevin's family invited me to go to Tampa with them for the fourth of July weekend.
    Dad said no.
    I feel like it's not even his decision.
    He is so insistent on ignoring the seriousness of Kevin's and my relationship, that it affects his decisions about us.
    He pulled the "I prayed about it card," and God may have actually said no.  But this answer is so consistent with all of the "non-prayed about" decisions, that I can't see the difference anymore. 
    When a man comes and tells you God has spoken to him, and told him he is supposed to marry your daughter, and your daughter tells you she has also heard from God the same, you don't treat the relationship with such triviality. 
    I have talked to Kevin, and we both agree that by the end of the summer we should have a date ready.
    At that point we will come and talk to Dad and his parents, get their input, and proceed. 
    I know I am not perfect, nor have I always made the best decisions in life. 
    But I would like some respect for me and Kevin's relationship.

    A friend of mine is getting married, and she is a year younger than I am.
    The contrast between her parents and my father is hilarious.
    Mrs. Paulette is ecstatic about Ashley getting married, while my father can barely utter the words "marriage" about me and Kevin.

    My worldview is so different than my father's, I don't see how we even live in the same house.
    I just have to keep praying for grace.
    I don't want to be sheltered, I don't want to "not face the real word just yet."
    Parents shield us so long, people are 25 years old and still not facing reality.
    I'm a realist.
    I don't like fantasy.
    I want the real thing.
    With the "real thing" comes the "real world."
    I've tasted it, seen it, swam in it, and it sucks.
    But it's real.
    And I have to accept reality.
    Point blank.
    While my father dismisses the fact that I know what the real world is, and am prepared to handle it, however rough it may be, I'll just keep living.


Thursday, June 12, 2008

  • To be Modest, or Not to Be?

    This is the message I was going to send a friend of mine on modesty.  We had a discussion two nights ago about it, and she felt that she could wear whatever she wanted to wear on the beach.  I know that the realization that bikinis were immodest did not come to me until the Holy Spirit took a hold of my heart, so I didn't want to press the issue, and decided against sending it.  However, I didn't want the typing to go to waste, so I am going to publish it on here.
    Blessings.

    "how are you?  I hope you got some rest--you looked dog tired!!
    anyway, I don't usually do this, because I don't like to sound pushy, but I know you are open to discussions anytime. =) I also don't want you to think that I am being "preachy," but I feel a responsibility as your sister in Christ to say something.

    Remember our conversation about modesty the other night?  I looked up the verse that you were talking about "in whatever you do do it to the glory of God" because I'm about to teach a Bible study on modesty with some young girls.  When I read it, I realized that right next to that, God places some restrictions on our freedom so that there is order and that everyone benefits from the decisions the body of Christ makes daily.

    1 Cor. 10:31 So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. 32Do not cause anyone to stumble, whether Jews, Greeks or the church of God— 33even as I try to please everybody in every way. For I am not seeking my own good but the good of many, so that they may be saved.

    The main part I wanted to point out was "Do not cause anyone to stumble."

    As a young woman, you are powerful.  The way you dress, conduct yourself around others, it all has power in it.  And I'm telling you, the intent of bikinis and cut out swimsuits were not designed to "get a tan."  They were designed BY MEN.  That's a key factor. Men know what arouses them. Many women took the bikini as a "liberation," when in fact they were being used as eye candy--I'm telling you, ask ANY male at the beach, ask any lesbian--what are people looking at when you are in a bikini?  Your body, and they are lusting after it.  Meaning, we are causing our brothers to sin.  We are causing our sisters to sin, and we say, "we have freedom in Christ!"  We don't have the freedom to make others stumble.  Paul talks about this in Galatians 5.  We are to act in love, and not indulge in the "sinful nature."  If what you are doing causes your fellow brother to indulge in the sinful nature--don't do it!  Because by your actions, you yourself are indulging in selfishness, which is apart of the sinful nature.  If it causes even a stranger to sin, don't do it!  It doesn't matter if you're wearing clothes, a bikini, drinking, dancing, or whatever it is.  It's selfish of Christians to even pretend as though doing so is ok.  And believe me, God will hold every single one of us accountable for our actions. 
    God has been convicting me of this, and I know He's not just convicting me for myself.  God wants every single one of us in this group to stand up for righteousness, and especially as women, stand up for purity and modesty."

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

  • What to Do?

    I'm trying to figure out what type of home business I want to start.  I know what to I want to do (event planning), but who will trust an 18 year old with events?  I know I am great at event planning--I've done it before.  But I have no pictures to show for my work, and my age seems to be a stumbling block in people's eyes.  My friends are not as proactive as they think they are, and never follow through with the ideas they have for concerts and such.  Maybe I should plan a party on my own?  Maybe I should plan a concert?  That cost money...and I don't have that kind of money.  I would love to devote my spare time to event planning, but there is a lack of events and clientèle.   I can't stand this small town.  It's so restrictive unless you're rich.
    I must trust in God's plans for me.  He can and will open the doors that need to be opened.


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