Seriously...
This past week has been the longest week ever.
Like, I want to quit my job(s) and take a permanent vacation, long
It was a week of extreme fatigue, anger, frustration, mistakes, and lots of fear.
and
I am worried that this coming week will just be more of the same.
My pastor mentioned today that sometimes we can mistake our desires for God's will.
That made me stop...
Could I have taken on an extra job (diminishing my chances of getting any sleep), extra responsibility, extra stress for the very wrong reasons?
Was my desire for more experience and extra money just that: My Desire and NOT God's will?
Now I feel torn
Am I really doing this because it just what I want to do, or is it God leading me?
If it's me, will God bless this mess I've gotten myself in?
And if it's Him, is this going to get any better...anytime soon?
I'm just hoping not to be so scared to go to work.
Sam mentioned Psalm 18
1 I love you, O Lord, my strength. 2 The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in
whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. 3 I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. 4 The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me. 5 The cords of the grave coiled around me; the snares of death confronted me. 6 In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. (crosswalk.com)
So no matter what, He is still who I need to run to.
I guess I'll tell you who things come along in the next few weeks.
The righteous run into it and they are safe...
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