Tuesday, 16 October 2012
This is something that has bothered me since I was 13. I attend a Christian church, and I do believe in God and Jesus and all that, but I just have never understood this key concept, and it really makes almost everything else within the faith difficult.
There is this idea that we are all in sin. Whether you believe in Original Sin or not, the first time one sins, one is deserving of Hell. No unclean thing can enter the kingdom of Heaven, etc. We are all deserving of eternal damnation and it is only by Jesus' grace that we can escape it, and we are all to be eternally grateful to our savior for dying in the way that he did to save us.
That's how the story goes, right?
But nobody is perfect. we were created to be sinful, carnal, etc. God created us deserving of damnation. Maybe not the second we were born -- unless you are an original sin believer -- but nobody can be perfect. It is impossible. But if we accept Jesus and all that, we are able to escape the clutches of Hell we so deserve.
This has always caused a problem for me. Maybe I am too "prideful," but I just feel like the whole system is rigged. Christianity works if you believe that you deserve eternal damnation, but if it was set up that way from the start, then I don't feel that I really do deserve the fire and brimstone. There was no way to escape it. We were all going to sin for the first time at, oh, 2 years old, and it would be done.
We are to love the Lord with all of our being, simply because He is God and because He has saved us, but he has placed us in this predicament in the first place! Why are we supposed to feel so grateful, to hand over our entire lives to Jesus, when there was no alternative in the first place?
I feel like I'm committing a huge heresy here, because what I am writing is against everything I've ever been taught, but I've just always been stuck on this.
Were we created to be deserving of damnation just so Jesus could save us? Or were we created for something else and just became worthy of hell? Can you help explain?