La
tely I have been pulling away from my more Christian-oriented posts and this has paralleled with what's really been going on in my life spiritually. See, I've been fighting with the Lord over something; something that He's asking me (or telling me, really) to do and I just plain and simply don't want to do it.
Be silent. Be still.
As simple as it may sounds it is not so for me and He knows it but it doesn't change the fact that this is what He's calling me to do.
Since moving here my heart has been centered around everything that I feel I lost, the friends and family I left behind. I see the blessing in it, though. I see that moving away has enabled me to break away from the things that I never had the guts to before. I see that it has helped me draw closer to Him and to my husband and my children. Really it has given us a whole new life. Before this my husband had lost his job three weeks before my scheduled C-Section. We almost lost everything but then a man gave us the opportunity of a life-time while asking for nothing in return but that we make the most of it. Well, me sitting here whining about how I feel is not making the most of it.
My way of coping with all of this is by being constantly consumed with noise. Whether it's the TV, the radio, or both; even just the sound of my own voice in my head going a million miles a minute, there is always noise! I've often heard that in the noise He is drowned out. That we hear Him and feel Him in the silence.
As I am pulling away from Him into my own little nest of self-pity I feel Him telling me, "Be silent." I just don't want to. I don't want to face it. I don't want to go without them, my vices. In an attempt, however, to follow His direction I took a mini-vacation away from the computer; took a trip to Galveston with Matthew and Odelia, walked The Strand, window-shopped. It was nice. I thought, "there, I was silent". Oh no, not so. I don't get off that easily. See, He's not easy on me a whole lot, and though I know He could be much much harder on me, I am grateful for it. He and I both know I need it.
And He and I both know that my refusing Him is futile. It will get me nowhere and here I am, going nowhere, by my own fault.
Well, I give up. I give in. I am going to listen to You. I am going to be silent.
As hard as it will be, just because He loves us does not mean that He will make life easy-cheesy. Things will be hard but it is in Him that we will find peace, we just have to be obedient and I have not been so.
So, friends, please pray for me that I will continue to heed His call, no matter how difficult or painful it may be and sorry for yet another despondent post. I pray that everyone has a good and productive week.
What call is God placing on your life? Are you having trouble answering it? How can we be more willing to answer God's call, even when it is difficult to face?
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There are two notable callings in the New Testament and it's no coincidence that they are two of the Joyful Mysteries of the Rosary.
The first calling is when the Virgin Mary was called by God to be the Mother of Jesus, Son of God. We can know if we are actually being called because somebody from the Church asks us directly if we'll do something.
"Will you play music at the Saturday evening service?" or "Will you set up the bread and wine for Mass?" or "Will you be Minister of the Word and do the Mass readings?"
It is necessary to reason out if the request is consistent with our past experience and personal disposition, talents and strengths.
The second calling was when young Jesus was consumed with a powerful calling from inside himself and he disappeared to go to the Temple (to be in his Father's house).
The inner calling also comes from God but it is consistent with our personal nature. A true inner calling from God will therefore be automatically joyful.
Both callings, the calling from God through someone or some circumstance, or the inner calling that takes place in our hearts, are consistent with our talents, strengths and interests so as to produce a passion for the calling.
Humble and beautiful sharing. I know of what you speak, we all go through it, yet the Lord is always there, trust, conscious trust is the path I take, though I am not always strong by any means. Will pray for you.
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mark
@PrisonerxOfxLove@xanga - I'm curious to know if you equate 'joyful' with happiness? That is, will only a true calling from G-d lead to greater happiness?
@NotWhereIThought@xanga - Everything we do has happiness as it's end.
Discovering the calling that God put deep down into our bones and then answering that call is the way to fullest happiness.I have found that answering when the Church calls to be quite a challenging Cross to bear, however.
...& personally I've had the exact same walk/passage, ONLY to be overwhelmed by the goodness & grace/blessings received AFTER I've done what I didn't want to do...yup - giving in & specifically doing as He's asked...pretty amazing actually, pretty awesome that He is !
Blessings Sister...blessings !!
Please provide testable legitimate evidence that ANY Supernatural god was involved in your good fortune after so much misfortune?
Hearsay, Story book propaganda and emmotional appeals for credibility don't wash!
@Composer - America is proof positive of what can happen to a nation and its people when they are free and choose to follow God's calling.
God is mentioned four times in the Declaration of Independence among which, the Founders make a specific, God-directed prayer for success.Since God is a spiritual being, he is not subject to the scientific method. Nevertheless, his blessings are obvious to those who are open minded enough to stop and take a look.
@Composer - She doesn't need to.
@PrisonerxOfxLove@xanga - This is the result of countries like the god believing America you suggest -
To sum up:
In general, higher rates of belief in and worship of a creator correlate with higher rates of homicide, juvenile and early adult mortality, STD infection rates, teen pregnancy, and abortion in the prosperous democracies... The United States is almost always the most dysfunctional of the developed democracies, sometimes spectacularly so, and almost always scores poorly. The view of the U.S. as a “shining city on the hill” to the rest of the world is falsified when it comes to basic measures of societal health.
(Source: http://stupac2.blogspot.com.au/2006/10/does-religion-benefit-society.html)
@wolvenchic@xanga - Hey dimwit!
You obviously don't know your preferred Story book and don't believe what it states -
1. Prove all things; hold fast that which is good. (1 Thess. 5:21) KJV Story book
2. But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry . {make...; or, fulfil} (2 Tim. 4:5) KJV Story book
You and those like you remain unambiguously defeated, so get going immediately with your proofs otherwise or else remain a liar and a self deluded fraud?
@Composer - No, she doesn't need to, because you are a troll, dimwit.
MommaFish89, thank you for sharing. :)