I go through times of inner shattering, when everything seems to go in too many directions at once.
I feel tired, angry and have trouble praying or focusing on scripture.
I know much of it because of my sleep cycle.
I have always been a light sleeper and even as a young child and teenager, could never sleep in on weekends.
So I know that exhaustion is what causes a great deal of this.
It is how I tend to handle it that makes it worse.
I try to escape the inner turmoil by seeking something other than waiting on the Lord to deal with it.
I know from experience that when I wait on the Lord, just set, look at a scripture verse, or perhaps a an Icon I have in my room, brings the inner shattering and turmoil to rest, or to a point where it is no longer a temptation I feel a compulsion to get away from.
Yet I still persist in not sitting before the Lord at times.
I am a mystery to myself, but the Lord always wins out, the light returns and once again things settle.
I could spare myself a lot of inner pain and anxiety by simply doing what I know the Lord is calling me to practice. I believe I am my own worst enemy.In what ways are you your own worst enemy? How do you get in the way of what God is doing in your life? How could we trust God more with our lives and get out of the way?