Monday, 28 May 2012
During my adolescence and even up to early adulthood, I had this insecurity when it comes to skin because I was born hairy. I feel ugly. I was dreaming of having a flawless looking skin. Every time people notice it I had this feeling of humiliation from the way they commented about it.
I did ways to remove it but those were just temporary. I gave up on doing them. I felt self-pity.
I set limit on the choice of clothes, which was more long sleeves and pants. I became old-fashioned. It made me sad.
I realized that this brings no good to me and decided that it should be ended.
I prayed. When I opened my eyes in front of the mirror, I saw a beautiful smile, normal body, complete senses, and more than that, a life devoted to our Creator. I realized that there are more parts of me which are beautiful and should be appreciated like my family, friends, health, and the freedom to praise God.
I thanked Him for these blessings and asked forgiveness for showing discontentment on how He created me.
I did not change my fashion because I am used to it, but what I changed was my perception of beauty. In this world, whom I should please more? Of course, God. I started to be proud on my looks particularly on my skin because this is God's gift to me.
I told myself to concentrate on developing more my inner beauty. Of course, giving also time fixing my outer. At least now, I am not trying hard on having hairless skin. And even if people see comment about it, I just told them that it is my uniqueness and they agree.
Proverbs 31:30 says, "Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." What matters most to Him is what is inside because a woman of true beauty is a woman pleasing in the eyes of God.
Do you struggle with insecurities? How do they affect your life? What about you does God see as beautiful?