Friday, 17 February 2012
I'm new here. I have been a Christian for years, and I love God deeply. I was filled with joy and hope the moment I accepted Jesus as my saviour.
However, I started to fall away months later. I'm having problems with sexual sin. I have been trying so hard to resist temptation and not to succumb to evil desire, but each time I fall after some inner struggles.
I want to be holy and do the right thing, and I can't tolerate sinning this way against God over and over again. I feel guilty each time after I sin, and I detest it so much looking back on what I've done. I have the tendency to go to porn when I have sexual desire and indulge in masturbation. Soon after that, I'm guilt stricken and feel extremely bad about myself, and I go back to repent each time.
I can't think of the day when I will not sin this way anymore, but I believe that day will come. I don't want to repeat the same sin over and over again.
Please tell me how to stop and pray for me. I've been trying so hard, it's seriously causing damages to my life. Sometimes I ponder whether God will forgive me or not. I don't want to spend too much time thinking about sin, but it is a problem that I can't ignore. I feel so ashamed and dare not to bring this problem out and share with people. I have no accountable partner.Any pastors and fellow brothers and sisters here? Please pray for me, and I'm looking forward to your great advice.