Wednesday, 11 January 2012
I believe this, but sometimes I wonder. I hear some people claim this as a promise, or people who reject things that I think would be very practical because it's not exactly what they want, and they say that the Lord isn't going to give them anything but the best. Okay, if I'm being honest, maybe I'm a little like that too sometimes. Because I think as much as I reject high-maintenance living (seriously, who splurges for the $9 laundry detergent?), there are areas of my life where I won't buy or accept anything but the best.
Which makes me think that maybe I don't know what's best for me. Or that maybe my desires aren't always in line with what God's desires are for me. Don't get me wrong, I know that God loves me and wants to bless me -- within reason. But I think I stop somewhere before we go diving into a "prosperity gospel," that God wants us all to be successful and have six figure salaries and live in well furnished four bedroom houses. Alas, I digress. Does God want what's best for me? Of course. But my idea of what is best and his ideas of what's best I'm sure are very different. Because I come across verses like, "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?" (Jer 17.9).
So then, do we really know what our desires are, or what should be best for us? Are we running ourselves ragged in circles saying, "Lord, I know you want the best for me; that's why I'm refusing to accept a job that I think is beneath me because I know you'd want better." Or, "Lord, I know that this girl is really nice, but she doesn't do this, this, or this, so I think you'd want me to have better." If our hearts are innately wicked and deceitful, can we be even sure of what we want? Jeremiah says, can we even KNOW it?
I don't know. But I do believe that Jesus knows my heart better than I do. And so, when we come back to the verse, David writes that we should delight ourselves in the Lord. If I studied the original Hebrew, I could probably tell you if that part of the sentence is a prerequisite to the next section, but I haven't studied it today. But it seems to me that as we delight ourselves in the Lord, we become more like him, and maybe we realize we have these desires that closely resemble His desires.
Do you wrestle with wanting things and not having them right now? Do you find yourself sometimes at odds, not knowing what you really want? Are you praying for things that just seem not to come to fruition?
Delight yourself in the Lord. As we become more like Him, and as our joy comes from HIM, He unveils his spectacular plan for our lives.
You think you know the desires of your heart? When has God given you the desires of your heart but surprised you by His plan? How can we be more trusting of God to know the desires of our heart even when we don't?