Monday, 01 August 2011
"For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places." -Ephesians 6:12
The Bible is very clear that Satan is real. Jesus was tempted by him in the wilderness during his fasting (right after his baptism), and battled against him with Scripture. Job was spiritually and physically attacked by Satan, when his family and livestock were killed and he became covered in boils. Whether Satan is real is not the question. The question is, to what degree does he attack the members of Christ's church? What powers does he have? Can he give us bad dreams?
I have heard from reliable sources (Christian friends/acquaintances) of demonic activity and attacks, especially in dark places where the Gospel is just being introduced.
October 2009. I am a newly married 20-year-old. My husband and I just moved to our first place together. It was one of the best times of my life. Spiritually, I was a new believer (I was saved May 2008) and had fought a lot of spiritual battles before my marriage. I was "on fire" for God. Meaning, the Gospel was still fresh to me. It was like being in a new romantic relationship. You know when you just can't wait to see your significant other? That's how I was with Christ. I talked about him all the time and couldn't stop reading my Bible.
Anyway, so mid-October, I began to have continuous demonic dreams. Not just your typical nightmare. They were (and still are) unlike any other nightmares I've ever had. I'm scared to go to sleep almost every night (though I should not fear, because my Father in heaven loves me!), and can't sleep without either my husband or my son at my side. Here's what would happen:
Let's say I went to bed wearing blue pajamas and laying to the left side of my husband. During my dream, I would be awake, wearing those same pajamas, lying beside my husband, in our apartment. Nothing looked "weird" or dis proportioned, as is typical of dreams. It's as if I were awake. In fact, at times, I'm pretty convinced I was at least somewhat awake, because I would try and try to keep my eyes open so as to "kill" the dream (meaning, if I'm awake, I can't keep dreaming! If my eyes could stay open, I was hoping I would wake up). The scariest thing is, I try and try to wake up, but I fail everytime. I'm actually pretty good at waking up during dreams. If I'm being chased by a murderer, I just try to squint my eyes as hard as I can and try to open them as wide as I can, and that seems to work. But with these dreams, it's different. My eyes are already open! Again, I don't know if they're really open or not, but to me they are. I usually try to scream for my husband but to no avail. I either can't scream loud enough, or he doesn't wake up.
The dreams are usually exactly the same. The room would have one or more dark figures dancing around it. Sometimes they would taunt me, and threaten me. Other times, they were silent, just letting me know they were there.
My comfort is, I always quote scripture to them and scream at them. Sometimes my voice goes out, which is scary, because God's Word is my sword! If I can't speak, I feel defenseless. I always remind them who is sovereign over them and that "no one can bring a charge against God's elect." At the end of the day, I know I am safe in Christ's arms and that no one can hurt me apart from his sovereign will. Satan has to get permission from God to do anything (see the book of Job). But of course, you're going to have fear if you think Satan is in the room with you.
So here's my questions. I know the human brain is very powerful. I'm more of a "physical" person. Meaning, I have to be pretty convinced that something is actually an objective spiritual experience rather than a subjective emotional reaction. Be it healings or dreams, I usually am a skeptic because I know how powerful the human body is and especially the brain. I know I have dreamt some pretty crazy stuff before and I don't attribute it to divine communication. But in this case, why have I struggled with these dreams for nearly two years now? I find it hard to believe that my brain is doing this on its own. Considering the fact that Satan attacks God's children more than nonbelievers, it would seem that these dreams are legitimately from him and not from me.
They come at random times. It can be during a nap in the middle of the day, or at 3 a.m. Whether I've had a good or bad day, that doesn't seem to matter. The foods I eat don't seem to matter either. I've looked for correlations but cannot find any.
Have you ever had an experience like this? What do you do when something like this happens? Do these dreams have meaning?