Friday, 11 February 2011
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Tonight I Felt the Presence of the Lord
Tonight I went to a church worship service with my sorority sister. I've been to a couple of their events/services before. It's completely different from the church I regularly attend. When I'm there, I feel a sense of a freedom, and it's so easy just to let my wall down and forget about everything else going on.At the service, a girl my age, Bethany, was praying with me and telling me about how much God loves me. His heart breaks for me; He cries for me! When Bethany was praying with me, I kept feeling these chills and tingles on my back that made me twitch a bit. I believe that was God touching me. After Bethany walked away, a drop of water dripped on my face. It definitely wasn't my own tear, and I'm pretty sure no one spit on my face from a distance! It was God's tear. He cries for me! The Lord is always there for me: he offers me the best, but so often I turn away from it. God loves me and he pursues me! It breaks his heart when I reject him.
Like I mentioned, this church is very different from my regular one. I attend a Baptist church; this church is non-denominational, but I would say it's pretty close to a Pentecostal church. The pastor walked over and prayed with me. She knows I've only been there a few times and that I'm not too comfortable with everything quite yet. She prayed for me to just let my mind go and just soak up the Holy Spirit. As she prayed for the Spirit to consume me more, the more I felt like I couldn't control my legs and fell straight down on the pew. The presence of the Lord is so great, mighty, and huge! He is so powerful! I've always seen people collapsing in the presence of the of Lord, but I didn't think it would ever happen to me. Low and behold, I did. What a majestic Savior I have!
Tonight, I felt like the Lord really condemned me about how I hold back from Him. He wants all of me. I need to acknowledge him in all my ways.
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not into thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord and depart from evil.
Proverbs 3:5-7I am so stubborn but I don't know any ways but my own. I'm too set in my ways; it's hard for me to try others. I know it upsets God when I deny his ways- He showed me that tonight! He cries for me! I just don't know what it will take for me to really let myself go and to trust the Lord whole-heartedly.
When have you felt the Lord's presence? What did it feel like? Do you find yourself holding back from God? What can we do to be more trusting of God?
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I think this is something that everyone has struggled with at some point or other. How do we build trust in our relationship with God? I think reading the love letters that God has for us in His Word is the first step. Fall in love with who God is. God speaks to us in many ways and we need to be listening to Him. Reading His Word is the first step. Praying open and honestly to God is the next. Sometimes that takes time, but keep investing in your relationship with God. You will be surprised at what you will find...
God has clearly given you a spark. Don't be afraid of it. Let your positive experience of God's love in this specific moment help build your trust enough to take the next step... God Bless!
I hope that helps...
I go to non denominational churches that believe in the gifts as well. I really recommend that you continue going there! I never had really physically felt the Holy Spirit before I had gone somewhere that believes in the gifts. For me, every time I walk into somewhere where the Holy Spirit is really strong It almost feels like there is electricity running all over me? Sort of that tingling when your leg falls asleep, but through my whole body (but it doesn't hurt or anything). I especially feel it in the palms of my hand. It's awesome. Oh, and one time a lady was praying for me and I had my eyes closed and suddenly it felt as if she was pushing me, so I opened my eyes to see that she wasn't even touching me and that it was completely the Holy Spirit. That was pretty cool.
Also, to get closer to God, it really, really helps to make more friends that are strong in their faith because you will be much more encouraged. From the sound of it, the place you're going is a really awesome place that can really help you with your relationship with God.
You don't need to change everything at once. Really, what you should do is just start giving some time in your day every day devoted to Him. Just talk to Him and tell Him how you feel about things and tell Him about your day and ask Him questions and stuff. And ask Him to help walk you through this and ask Him to change the desires in your heart to match His desires for you. And when you read the bible, try spending a lot of time in the gospels at first. When you get close to Him, you start wanting to spend more and more time with Him and you start wanting to give things up for Him because you begin to feel how much He loves you and how much better His love is than anything else in this world, and it makes you fall so deep in love with Him that you can't help giving up everything for Him.
I love how God reaches out to His children in all kinds of different ways. For some it may be a physical touch, for others He speaks through music, or through witnessing the beauty of His creation, or via the love of another. It continually amazes me how much He loves us and reaches out to us to show it. Such an awesome thing; thanks for sharing your experience.
That's amazing. Growing up, I saw things like that happen in church; all around me, people would shout and dance up and down the aisles, or just fall to the floor. I was scared of it at the time, and I would just stand there, hoping it wouldn't happen to me, lol. I think I was just scared of what people would say, and scared of losing control of myself, but now...I think it's a great thing. Still hasn't happened to me, though. And yes, I absolutely do hold back from God. I'm scared of what He might do, if I don't. I'm not sure how to overcome that.
As I realized the implications of my accepting God as my Lord and Savior I too was afraid. I held closely to Mark 9:14-24 ending with “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” And he did :?) Your new found faith will become stronger with time. If you read further you will find it to say that prayer is powerful. ~ mom
@caroliiineee@xanga - Thanks for sharing! :)
@TheyCallMePaulNow@xanga - It seems like falling in love with God is the hardest thing to do! He loves us so much! How can I love Him as much as He loves me? At the same time though, when I think about how much He loves me, it makes me love Him even more!
@silvanarae55@xanga - I actually grew up in a Pentecostal church. I went there with my family from birth until age 9. No one ever explained to me what was happening. People would yell, run around, pass out, and speak in tongues. As a young girl, it was really scary to me. I can completely relate to you about worrying what others think and losing control of myself. I'm starting to reach a point where I'm realizing that some things are just between me and God- it doesn't matter what others think!
@krisab - =)