Wednesday, 19 January 2011
As I have been guided closer to the Christian path, I have noticed a struggle with friendships. While my friendships with the ladies of my church and my Christian mentor have grown stronger, my friendships from childhood seem to lack something.
I have recently found a strange sense of discomfort around the friends who are my age that are not on the Christian path. It is not as if I want to invite my friends over for a quiet night, sitting cross-legged in a circle, holding hands and singing Kumbaya. I could just do away with some of the empty values that surround me enough in our society.
For some reason, I thought my values and morals were sprouting from my age, experience, and I will dare say, maturity. If that is the case, I would have to argue that my friends who are the same age have had similar experiences and, well, should be mature.
Could it be that I am changing because I have a Christian path that is getting strengthened daily by the Lord? Does God want me to spread His word to my friends who lack a Christian path? Well, of course; how silly of me. Perhaps we have not shared as many experiences as I had thought.
The truth is I do not feel the urge to convert my friends to Christianity; I speak openly about my path and hope they hear it. I am not sure if this makes me guilty of my own situation or not.
Sometimes I am unsure of what to do or how to react. Sometimes I just smile and nod. Evidently, it has become an instinct to appear shocked at an unnecessary swear word. I thought all of this came with age, but I feel my experience is proving me wrong.
Did you struggle with old friendships early on your Christian path? Have any of you found yourself in a similar situation?