Tuesday, 18 January 2011
How important is self discipline when it comes to prayer and study of the Bible?
Is it wrong that, when alone, I don't often pray, and if I do it is mainly one of forgiveness and asking for this or that? I believe in God. In fact I want to be more like Jesus and be a "little Christ". Why do I not make more of an effort to talk to God? What is blocking me from doing so? Surely God knows what I'm feeling, what I'm thinking, what I wish to say even if I don't say it. Is there therefore a certain something missing from relationship with God?
As for Bible-study, alone that is almost non-existent. I was never the most studious of students as a child at school. I left school at 17 and went and joined the working world, so sitting down and trying to read the Bible -- which I have tried on many occasions -- is not only hard but even lacks an interest.
In contrast, when I'm at a core group with the people from my church and we look at the Bible, I always have comments to make and things I notice in whichever passage we are looking at. I enjoy studying it with other people, large group or small.
So why when alone do I not feel the urge to do so? I don't want study and prayer to become a chore, it should be a joyous thing, right? How can I get better at this? I don't want to miss out on a major part of God's world just by being lazy or stupid or whatever.
How do you make time to read the Bible and pray when alone? What advice would you give someone like myself who struggles with it?