Wednesday, 29 December 2010
And almost no one believes me. I hate when I'll say, "Oh! That kid goes to my church!" and someone else will look at me and say, "Haha! You don't go to church!" This makes me want to: Slap them/cry.
I'll admit it, I am a awful person. But I have pretty much stopped cursing, and saying "Oh my god". This was not an easy task for me. At all. I had started cursing when I was young and I've pretty much always said "Oh my god." That was a hard habit to stop.
I remember when I was probably around 11 years old, my friend and I went to ask her mom if she could go to church with me. She looked at us, laughed, looked at us and said, I quote, "You go to church, and you want to go to church?!" I still resent her. She's never said anything else to me but that comment.
The reason I felt any need to write this was because I found an audition for a Christian group. I showed my mom -- unfortunately I'm underage and must show her -- and she said "Why? You hate Christ?" I wanted to scream. This was one of the worst comments she's said to me. She was joking, but it hurt. A lot.
Just because you don't act it doesn't mean you don't love him. I pray every night and read my Bible. I am a Christian. I will never deny it, but I wont flaunt it for the people who are not as blessed as me with the gift of believing.
Has anyone ever been in disbelief of your Christian belief? How did you feel? Does it matter whether people see us as Christians?