Thursday, 09 December 2010
I get this general response from other Christians all the time along the lines of not holding on to worldly accomplishments and success, and what have you. I have a few issues with this argument.
One being the fact that I want to do something with my life. Is that so bad? I want to graduate college, I want to write novels, I want to do a ton of things. Since when did it become so bad to want a purpose in life? Am I supposed to be some mindless drone waiting for God to take me to the next step? I thought I was supposed, with the help of God, go through life? Which is what I want to do. I know I couldn't have done anything without Him. And I don't plan to do what I want to do in the future without Him.
It is just sometime I feel like my Christians mentors are telling me to forget about having a purpose in life. Just because what I want to do might lead to success, might lead to fame, doesn't mean that I want that more than eternal life with Him, it just means that while I am here, with the help of Him, I want to be able to accomplish my goals. Or at least try.
Another thing is -- and I'm not saying that all Christians are like this, just pretty much all the ones I go to church with -- most of these people are mega rich. Owners of companies, Senators, Lawyers, doctors, and they have gigantic mansions and million-dollar cars. What's that about?
How can you tell me that its not about worldly accomplishments all the while you are sitting in church with your expensive cars in the parking lot, decked out in whatever name-brand clothing? Even the pastor preaches this while his shiny gold Rolex flashes to the audience.
So why is it wrong for me to say that I am afraid of dying before accomplishing some good-natured goals? It has nothing to do with success -- it's just something I want to do if I can while I am on this Earth. It doesn't mean I put that above Him, I just pray that He will help me along the way if that's what I am meant to do.
And yes, it will make me a little sad if I were on my death bed before I got to do something -- then I would feel like I was just here for nothing. Then I would feel like: well what was the point in me being such a person that God made me, having all these goals in my head and the intelligence to do them if I were just going to die anyway.
What constitutes a purposeful life for you? Do you feel that you have a purpose in life?