Tuesday, 09 March 2010
What strikes the biggest fear in you? Your parents, family, friends finding out you did something bad or God? Whose judgement of you matters most in you life? For me, I think it's my mother and my grandparents. My friends in some respects know more about me than my family. My mum and I are pretty close as is she to her parents. But as close as we are, if I were to have sex and get pregnant I would consider abortion rather than tell my family I had sex, whether I was pregnant or not. And I am not someone who supports killing babies even though I don't like them. I think all life is precious.
Case study: "I've smoked pot before, only once but it was fairly recently and I can't say I won't do it again but I also can't say I will do it again." But if my family were to find out, I don't even want to think about the lectures and how much respect and trust they would have lost in me. I hate that in ways they think I am perfect. Personally I don't see it as a bad, terrible thing. It's my choice, I'm definitely over 18 now, and considered an adult in their eyes (most of the time). To most people if they asked Id admit to it, but if my family asked I wouldn't lie but I would definitely not tell them the truth either, I would find a way around it, change the topic or whatever.
Are you more worried about being judged by your family and friends as opposed to being judged by God? Whose judgment should you be more afraid of?