I believe in Christ. I have been a Christian since July 31, 2002 - almost seven years. But I've always wondered about my eternal security. If I were to die tomorrow, would I really end up in heaven or would I end up in hell? I'm not one to believe that it's possible to lose your salvation. I believe that once you have prayed the salvation prayer and mean it, you are saved.
My problem is this: I am a former self-proclaimed Hindu. Many years ago, at the age of nine, was my initial "acceptance" of Christ. As the years passed, it became more and more obvious that my early "conversion" hadn't been real. I eventually got into Hinduism, really getting into it in about 2000 or so.
Then in 2002, I went to a week-long Christian church camp. Even though I considered myself to be Hindu, I never went to the Hindu temple to make sacrifices or pray or anything like that. Instead, I still hung around the Christian church - even though I hated Christians. So either way, through attending Christian services, I ended up going to Bible camp for a week.
During that week of camp, I attended a class called "Anything Goes" which was a question-and-answer thing. One of my questions was "If you believe in God, but decide you no longer believe, do you still go to heaven?" Long story short, that question was pulled from the hat one night during class. I understood his basic answer to be no, and that even if you return to God and choose to believe again, you're still not saved. It won't do you any good to accept Christ a second time, as you will be rejected.
I remember finding one of my friends in the chapel sanctuary after class and telling her what I had been told, saying that I might as well continue to be a Hindu because accepting Christ a second time wouldn't do me any good.
I ended up accepting Christ a month after camp. But either way, this issue still haunts me seven years later. Anyone have any answers?