I was in a class with my best friend, and we had free time and the subject of love came up. The six girls I was talking with were saying how they absolutely knew they were in love at least once. I wasn't the oldest in the group or youngest, but I seemed to be the most mature about it. I said to my best friend "Hun, I love you to death, but I think that love had a whole lot of help from your hormones."
Then all of a sudden she went off on me, telling me I had no clue and I was just jealous. I allowed how she would speculate that because she herself had just been broken up with, and I hadn't been in a relationship for a year. Then the oldest girl backed me up.
"Listen to Lorna, she's been through a lot more than you have. She understands what love means. She hardly ever has hormones bursts, and she has been in the truest love."
I admired that she thought I was more emotionally mature than her and how she thought I had been in the truest love than any other. One of the freshmen around me asked, "What was it like when you had sex with him? you did have sex with him right?"
I was truly shocked how every single one of these girls except my best friend had thought I had lost my virginity. It really offended me that they automatically thought since I was more mature, I was not a virgin. I then asked the freshmen, "Why do you think I did? what makes you so sure?"
She replied, "Well, you were in love weren't you and your so much more emotionally mature than us so why wouldn't you have?"
I said with a little bit of sadness, "I was in the truest love because I told him all about it and he didn't ask me for it."
"Oh," she said. "So you weren't in love?"
"Okay chick, you don't have to be in love and have sex, you can be a virgin and stay in love. My ex said to me he wouldn't force anything on me and that he wanted to wait till his wedding night too and hoped I would be the one he gave it to."
There was this huge discussion about it and I almost left. Then they brought up the point about how they didn't think I was a slut, but how they thought because I was so much more mature than them that I would have lost it and not regretted it. I was amazed how much faith they had in my body and heart. How would I not have regretted it?
What does virginity mean to you?