Guest post submitted by Hippmama
I love searching the internet. I love typing something in, being given about a bazillion things to choose from and learning about everything from headaches to flowers to how to make baby food and take better photos. I love the instant gratification, the immediate list I get of pages of information to soothe my continually searching brain. I love the plethora of words, opinions, advice, pictures, and blogs. I think the internet truly is the best thing since sliced bread.
I wish, now more than ever, that it worked for real life.
I wish I could just google my decisions....and enter in: should I stay here or move to VA while my husband Trevor is away?
I could type: should I pursue photography or only writing?
Maybe search: how can I be the parent God wants me to be?
I wish it were that easy. So simple. Shake the black eight ball.
But, life is about living I guess. Mistakes, right choices....reworking things, going in new directions, talking with God.... I could make a very silly devotional here- about how God is our search engine- having given us his word as our direction, our map, using prayer as our catalyst... blah blah blah... and, it would be true. But it isn't reassuring.
We live in a google world. Enter in what you want, wait .03 seconds to get the answer, and yet.... God doesn't work that way.
We have to put in time. Talking, listening, reading, doing. Expecting answers, but often left waiting on them. Trying to avoid our own biases and opinions in order to hear what it is He'd have us do. And that is hard for me.
I have been molded by the instant world we live in. But I want to hear him. I don't want to miss what he'd ask of me because the answer isn't packaged in a 500 word article with bullet points and a pie chart. I want to be fluid and liquid- able to move with him, have Him work through me, being flexible to truly hear His voice and not just my ideas with some scripture wrapped around them in order to make them seem palatable. I want to do his will, to know it.
So, I guess, in the vein of the google metaphor.... I need to get back to a dial up life. Slower, drumming my fingers and daydreaming while I wait for the connection to come through...being still and calm while I listen for his voice. Realizing that the connection is still as strong, just not as fast as I'd like...and be thankful for that.