Friday, 25 July 2008

  • Christians With Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: Part 2

    poppy by miss poppy

    handwashing2 When I first wrote about my OCD, a friend started a dialog with me about it. A lot of what she said got me thinking about the root of the problems in my relationship with God.

    I realized that as much as I didn't want to distrust God, I couldn't reconcile His promises about His character with the feelings of abandonment and defenselessness I had experienced in my childhood. I wasn't willing to just disregard these discrepancies. I wanted answers.

    God did two miraculous things for me: He totally reversed my feelings and He gave me a logical answer to my questions. I cannot adequately express my thankfulness for His grace.

    And then I noticed something else: My OCD was practically nonexistent. In the days since God's intervention, I have been almost completely free of the symptoms I used to have. I can see a direct correlation between my dependence on God's peace and my lack of obsessions and rituals. When I veer off into anxiety, I can feel the behaviors coming back, but now that I can trust God, I can come back to relying on His peace and see the rituals and thoughts fade once again. I'm certainly far from perfect, but I absolutely can see a pathway toward total freedom emerging.

    It's not that I discount the physical aspects of my OCD. I believe they are real and significant. But what triggers them in me is anxiety, and Philippians 4:6 tells me, Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. I have never been able to do this fully because I didn't trust God's intentions toward me. Now that He is building that foundation in me, I can truly leave anxiety behind.

    I know Satan will fight me on this. I start college again in a month, and that usually causes me a lot of stress. In fact, a lot of my life has been about stress for a long time now. But God doesn't ask me to do anything that He won't help me do. If he tells me not to be anxious, He will continue to help me to have peace in His arms. And when I do, I will continue to experience freedom from OCD.

    I am not telling people how to deal with their OCD. I am relating my own experience of what God is doing in my life. It is all Him and none of me. To the world, there is no cure for what I've dealt with, but I am experiencing the cure right this minute.

    I want to encourage anyone who is dealing with any problem. God is a miracle worker. Perhaps your OCD is different from mine, or maybe you are dealing with a different issue altogether. But I know that I know that God has the answer. I had very weak faith, but He took what I gave Him and did something miraculous. I believe He will do the same for you.

    Is there a connection between faith and physical healing? Have you ever experienced this?

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