by miss marigold

I'm sure that at one point or another, most of us have been challenged by someone to do something pretty improbable. Maintain a cumulative 3.9 GPA for four years. Lose 50 lbs. Give up TV for Lent. Stay married to your spouse. Run a 10k marathon. Take care of your ailing relative for six months. Pass your driving test in Chinese, which you do not understand in car terms (that was mine four years ago...)
Since moving back on campus and reuniting with my suitemates, friends, and frenemies, God's given me a very basic, but nonetheless challenging, command: "You've told your secular friends that you are a Christian. Through your actions, let them know that that actually means." I'm a little hestitant to even acknowledge that it's a legitimate, personalized challenge and not just something I cooked up from church or reading the Bible; God's really convicted me to be "slow to anger," to forgive others, and to be more discerning of people.
I compare myself to Moses, who cited his speech problem as the reason why God shouldn't make him the guy who leads the Hebrew slaves out of Egypt. I've asked God again and again why He continues to challenge me when I not only fail him time and time again, but I don't always feel up for His calling.
My Christian friends often mention brothers and sisters they admire. "Oh, Person A not only reads gets up early to read His Bible, but he's actively concerned for others!" "Person B is such a moving worship leader!" "Person C's love for Christ is so apparent; she prays and worships even when things are crashing down!"
And hey, I admire these people too, which is why I always bring them up when God puts me in a position where my Christianity will be heavily scrutinized. I ask God why I'm the one with tons of non-Christian friends, and why I'm the one writing for Revelife; There are better Christians out there! Someone like Person C would be a way more effective testimony. You should wait till I'm like Person A before you use me. Person B is less likely to stumble in his faith if he had tons of non-Christian friends. Hey, I didn't ask for this! I'm not ready! More Here...